domingo, 14 de março de 2004

Ontem foi aniversario de um amigo e por conta daquelas coisas que se faz em nome da amizade, fui até lá sabendo que me defrontaria com um velho fantasma que me atormentara por alguns anos.

Qual nao foi a minha - grata - surpresa ao perceber que o fantasma nao existia mais? O fantasma se transformara numa recordação de um sonho ruim. Pude ficar na casa do meu amigo sem me sentir amendrontada. Eu estava em paz, em definitivo.

No entanto, foi curioso ouvir tocar tao logo adentrei a residencia desse meu amigo justamente a musica que eu dizia ser a que melhor definia o que eu sentia/pensava com relação ao fantasma.

Reproduzo-a agora para vocês:

YOU OUGHT KNOW
(Alanis Morissette)

I want you to know that I'm happy for you
I wish nothing but the best for you both
An older version of me
Is she perverted like me
Would she go down on you in a theater?
Does she speak eloquently
And would she have your baby
I'm sure she'd make a really excellent mother

Cause the love that you gave that we made
Wasn't able to make it enough for you to be open wide, no
And every time you speak her name
Does she know how you told me you'd hold me
Until you died, 'til you died
But you're still alive

(chorus)
And I'm here to remind you
Of the mess you left when you went away
It's not fair to deny me
Of the cross I bear that you gave to me
You, you, you oughta know

You seem very well, things look peaceful
I'm not quite as well, I thought you should know
Did you forget about me Mr. Duplicity
I hate to bug you in the middle of dinner
It was a slap on the face how quickly I was replaced
Are you thinking of me when you fuck her

Cause the love that you gave that we made
Wasn't able to make it enough for you to be open wide, no
And every time you speak her name
Does she know how you told me you'd hold me
Until you died, 'til you died
But you're still alive

Cause the joke that you laid in the bed that was me
And i'm not going to fade
As soon as you close your eyes and you know it
And everytime I scratch my nails down someone else's back
I hope you feel it ... well can you feel it?



O sentimento que me fazia ver semelhança entre a minha vida e aquela situação é agora mera recordação.

Enterrar, em definitivo, as situações do passado faz um bem enorme. A isto chamamos, vulgarmente, "dar a volta por cima".

Não quero que minhas lembranças sejam jamais seres errantes. Ainda que boas sejam. Porque ate do que é bom quero ter o gostinho sempre. Para nao ficar me lamentando do dia que passou, do momento que vivi. E eu vivo tudo muito intensamente.

Graças a Deus.

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